Only fools fall for you

[Wesley Carter]

What?

[Stefjan Auer]

I'm
If the test comes back positive
I can't

That's just not
Going to be a thing

So
No

[Wesley Carter]

There's treatment for that shit
I told you it's not a death sentence

[Stefjan Auer]

There's no cure

If I slip up one time
If something happens to a condom

I can't take that risk
And also may I point out
You're thinking of being my boyfriend now and I don't appreciate the timing of all this

[Wesley Carter]

I asked you to kiss me and you glossed over it too


I just told you it's not a death sentence.
It could take ages before it's even
AIDS

[Stefjan Auer]

I HAD TO TALK YOU INTO KISSING ANOTHER DUDE
AND YOU NEVER ASKED ME SPECIFICALLY

I'm gonna google this shit again
Maybe kissing's still okay

No sex

[Wesley Carter]

I said ok just do it
You dumb fuck

I googled it and sex is fine too if you're on treatment.

https://www.unaids.org/en/frequently-asked-questions-about-hiv-and-aids

Scroll down to 23 and 24.

I'm telling you. It's not the shit it used to be.

[Stefjan Auer]

Fuck youuuu

Kissing's okay, that's good...

But the sex thing
I just can't

I could never live with myself if anything happened to you
I





Love you
Way too much

[Wesley Carter]

No fuck you

....
I don't know what to say to that

[Stefjan Auer]

I want you to but you can't!

And you don't have to say anything
I always knew it was a long shot tbh

[Wesley Carter]

Well... yeah. Straight and everything.
I don't know how I feel about any of this
It's pretty much new to me.

I might just be curious.
I didn't want some poor sap getting tangled up in my shit when I don't have it all together

And before you say I'm BACK PEDALING
I'm not
Because I really don't fucking know

[Stefjan Auer]

Some poor sap is gonna get tangled up in this anyway

The easiest way is just to try stuff out
There's no way to think through this, believe me

In the end it comes down to just
Experimenting and trying new things

You'll know pretty damn quick if you don't like something

I'm not saying go out and fuck a dude this second
But also don't waste your own time and energy agonizing over shit cause it's not gonna do you any good

[Wesley Carter]

You don't have to do this.

I know you have way bigger things to worry about.

And I won't. I'm not, really. I just don't know what to think anymore.
It's like so much of my identity was wrapped up in her.
And now she's gone and it's like... so is that part of me.

I want to hate her but I can't. She just knew we weren't working.
I think I knew it too. I just didn't want to see it.

[Stefjan Auer]

You are more than just one relationship Wes
You'll find yourself again
It's not like you never existed before her, or didn't have a life and friends and things going on

Helping you
Helps me not think about stuff

[Wesley Carter]

Yeah I know.
I'm just
bummed

It's only been 2 weeks
I know it doesn't magically get better
but it's not like I've been moping either.
Kinda can't, got work to do and all that

And that's cool
it's fine
I'm just not ready to be all... back in the saddle yet