Say my name, say my name

[Seth Spiros]

Yes and I believe so. He's never had trouble with attracting women. He's a bit of a nerd though.

It's fine. We're taking the time now.
Do you have any siblings? :)

[Alejandro Riviera]

...can't be cuter than you. That's not possible 😘

So you're the jock and he's the nerd! Haha that's really cute. Do you guys get along?

I have a little brother and an older sister. My sister is a lawyer for the precinct and my little bro...

He uh
Wants to be a singer but last I heard dad was pushing hard for him to be a cop too.

[Seth Spiros]

Aw. Thank you. I'm sure you're the cutest too. In your family. Not that it would matter.

We do get along. He's only a couple years older than me. It sounds strange but I was his protector and he helped me to get through school. The benefits of the jock and nerd brother dynamic!

I think it's best to let people do as they dream. My family was not happy with my direction at first either. But they soon learned they love me for me and not what I do. It took a little time but. Things are good now.

I hope the same for you, Alexo.

[Alejandro Riviera]

Nice save, sir.
Hahaha I'm the cutest in my opinion, that's all that matters :P

You guys sound cute as hell. I love that you got along so well.

Are you religious Seth?
Did you know
That I am? Hard to believe, right?
I go to church every Sunday and everything

Confession though... bit awkward...

[Seth Spiros]

He would probably love you. Honestly my whole family would. They're really welcoming.

Ah. Well I was raised a christian. I haven't been to church in some time though.

Confession? Awkward?

[Alejandro Riviera]

If we ever get to that point of seriousness in our relationship, I'd love to meet them.
I miss having a big family around me. I have friends and I love them to death but it's not the same, is it?

You should come to church with me! The minister here gives good sermons. Not too preachy, you know?

And ah
Homosexual, eternal damnation of the soul, you know that whole deal
It's a good way to get the guilty things off my conscience I guess. Father Stewart doesn't judge, he just sits and listens
And absolves me of my sins, so I can get out there and sin, sin again!

[Seth Spiros]

No. It's not really the same.

And maybe I'll go with you. Haha. And here you thought you would be a bad influence on me. My mama would be happy to see me back in a church.

I never thought the homosexual thing was evil.

[Alejandro Riviera]

Point in my favor for when I meet her. ;)

I was taught that it was the greatest sin any man or woman could commit
My family, all of them, are strictly religious

That's why I don't think I can reconcile with them. As much as I would kill for that to happen, I don't think they'll ever accept this part of me.

[Seth Spiros]

See I was taught that the really nasty sins were murder and rape and lying and cheating and stealing.

My parents are more about love is love.
I wish yours were too. That they could see what's really important.

[Alejandro Riviera]

If only all parents were like yours
Oh well. It's something I'll just have to accept, I guess. I can't change them, they can't change me.

Have you
loved a lot in the past? Is it easy for you to fall in love?
I don't think you've dated a lot of men, have you?

[Seth Spiros]

There would be more well adjusted adults in the world!
I'd say try reaching out to them again but I don't know them like you do.
If you really think they won't change then...

It just kinda bothers me. It's like some parents would rather their kid be dead than gay or something.

And not really. I tend to get serious in relationships so there's not a whole lot of them in my past.
Just one other guy, sort of just happened. I think I had a brief crisis of identity?
But like I said, love is just love.

[Alejandro Riviera]

I don't think they want me dead but I think they don't
want me around
I think it makes them question their faith, to have to accept that I'm gay, and love me, and yet be told that I'm all wrong, you know?
It's easier if I stay away...

A crisis of identity. Hahaha! That sounds dramatic.
So you questioned your sexuality? But yeah... I think you'd feel the same way if I was in a woman's body instead of in a man's.

What happened with you guys?

[Seth Spiros]

I wish they knew you're not "all wrong."
I'm sorry they mess with your head so much but you know you can love god and love men too.
You still go to church so you're still searching for answers, right?

Haha... well... He was a fighter like me, it's how we met.
But he got hurt really bad, it stopped him from fighting and he changed.
And sometimes when two people are changing, they're going in very different directions.

[Alejandro Riviera]

It's okay. I can't dwell on it my whole life, right?
At some point I'll have to accept them, if they won't accept me, and move on.

Maybe when God said "love thy brother" us gays just took it a step too far. :P

Fighting was his identity. Right? And when he lost that, he lost himself?
That won't be you though
Doctor Seth ;)

But I can sympathize with him
That was me
Before you came along
Guess he couldn't see what he had all along

[Seth Spiros]

No... eventually we do need to move on from the things that plague us.
Otherwise, we'll just be stuck in the past.

Haha! Well, the should have specified!

Yeah, it was a part of who he was. I don't think he could see past losing that.
And sometimes, that really warps a person's whole world view.
Heh but I don't think that's me. I love it but I know it's not everything.
It's not even a part of my identity. It's just a thing I love to do. For him, it wasn't so easy to separate those two things.