Mending bridges

[Judah Hyunh]

Yeah, I was supposed to bring you out here for the holidays. They aren't big on cities like NYC so they never came up to visit...

But yeah, they like Aaron. And they would have liked you too.

[Alejandro Riviera]

Okay but who would they like more? Is the question 🤔

[Judah Hyunh]

Don't do that to yourself...

[Alejandro Riviera]

I'm joking! It's a joke!

Obviously it's me, look at me! I'm the boy next door! 😇😋

[Judah Hyunh]

I'm sure they'll love you regardless.

[Alejandro Riviera]

Haha yeah
It's okay, I have you and my friends
There are so many people who do love me
For me!

It took coming here to realize that but better late than never right?
If they love me at my worst then they're bound to love me at my best!

[Judah Hyunh]

Exactly.
Those are the people you need in your life.
It's good to know you're building a family around everybody.
I think it's the best thing you ever did for yourself.

[Alejandro Riviera]

😊 So true, you wise wise man.

I should also stop whining about Seth not wanting to bone hahaha. It's really nice to have someone who's not scared off by all this crazy I've got going on.

But it's weird dating again after we've been together for so long. I don't know
How to date anymore! Are you and Aaron dating? How are you handling this??

[Judah Hyunh]

He wants to take it slow. Nothing wrong with that.
You and I didn't "bone" til our third date, remember? 😂
I wanted to though. I just didn't want to look like all I wanted was sex.
Plus I was easing into it. A new relationship. All that.

But Um
Yeah? It still feels a bit like I'm cheating. It's so sudden and so soon
You know?

And I think we're dating. I'm not sure we made it official. But we're going out for drinks tonight.
He needs some chill time.
I admit I do too

[Alejandro Riviera]

That makes me so nervous babe. What if he finds out he doesn't like what he sees?
I guess it's hard to judge his level of interest without some kind of physical cue? You know? I know he's interested but HOW MUCH is the question!

But it's true... we didn't do anything until date #3 and by then I was like so impatient I actually would have ugly cried if you didn't stay the night that night. LOL
Maybe he's like that too. He doesn't want to come off like another 'guy from the club' type, I know that.
But he asked me if he could kiss me Judah. He asked. He's SO proper, it's throwing me completely off.

You're not cheating anybody but yourself baby, if you don't give it all you got! This is the love of your life, HELLO! I'm content to take a close second in your heart but.
You know you waaaaaanna~
Boooone~
Toniiiiight~

You haven't had any since you got here right? Sex is a good stress relief too!
I support you

[Judah Hyunh]

You could just ask.... that's a thought.
But you're you. I feel like you know if a guy is interested in you.
You knew I was. ;)

I'm pretty sure I would have ugly cried too. I wanted you so badly.
I wanted a relationship too though. You know?
I didn't want another one night stand and that's all I was getting in NYC for a while.

Haha well that would throw me off too.  Kinda sweet though.
He must like you enough to want to kiss you at the very least.

I do, yes. I think he does too.
Believe me we're both stressed to the max right now.

[Alejandro Riviera]

...right again, wise man
I'm second-guessing myself real bad lately Judah
I think I wanted him to sleep with me to show me he was interested, because I still feel like I'm not
Good enough. There's a part of me that keeps doubting

But you're right. If he wasn't interested he would've disappeared on me already, instead of asking me out and being respectful of boundaries
That means I should respect his boundaries too
...but I refuse to ask permission to kiss a man! If the timing's right I'm going for it, goddamnit

And if the timing's right for you and Aaron
Hey, go for it. :) Not everything has to be thought through six times
Sometimes you just gotta follow your gut, you know?

[Judah Hyunh]

Oh baby, haha! I don't expect you to ask him for permission for a kiss.
I think you'll know when you're both good to go.
..I suppose he already is if he asked. I wonder why he asked though. That really is strange.

I know but I can't help thinking it over... a lot.
Which.. sucks because we used to just know.

I should follow my own advice, eh?

[Alejandro Riviera]

I'm gonna say he asked because
He's foreign? He's Greek! Maybe they do things differently over there...

Or maybe he's scared of me hahahahaha

And yes

Follow your own advice dummy! You'll know
And if you don't, keep drinking until you do!!! 😋

[Judah Hyunh]

Maybe? Maybe it's like a "may I have this dance" sort of thing.

What did you do to scare him? The... dance floor thing?
You think he's worried you'll get shitfaced and do that with him?

Yeah well the drinking is for getting loose
and to stop thinking so damn much so...