Mending bridges

[Alejandro Riviera]

Hey
Are we okay to talk?

Is it too awkward? 🙁

Judah Hyunh

[Judah Hyunh]

Alejo!

We're fine to talk.
Are you okay?
Did you go back to New York?
What's going on?

[Alejandro Riviera]

Actually
I'm still here
Haha it's been a crazy couple of weeks

Judah
Thank you

I really just wanted to thank you and to apologize for what I put you through
I love you so much. And the timing just wasn't right for us to be together but the fact that you tried all the way up to the end, it means everything to me

[Judah Hyunh]

Is it work related? I know you can't tell me much. But I hope you caught your perp at least!

And... you're welcome?

But you don't have to apologize. I wish I understood more about what you've been going through.
The timing was pretty off, wasn't it?
If we met earlier... or even maybe later. I don't know. It was pretty awful timing.
But I'll always love you. There's always a place for you here in my heart.

[Alejandro Riviera]

No the work thing... I've put that on hold for the moment.

This is horribly embarrassing to tell you but
After we broke up, I sort of
Lost my mind. On drugs and booze and just everything bad you can think of
I was tired of living a lie, thinking that I didn't deserve to be loved and pretending I had it all together so no one would know how much I didn't have any of it together
I didn't deserve you, and all the kindness and love you tried to show me
I wasn't ready to be loved

Anyway I was in a really bad place but
I'm better now. Not completely, but I'm getting there. Things are finally looking up. I met some really nice people, they've been taking care of me.

I wanted to let you know I'm okay, so you wouldn't worry. :)

[Judah Hyunh]

I'm sorry.
I wish I didn't leave you alone and that I checked up on you.
I had a bad feeling about... everything but I didn't go with my gut instinct.
That's my fault, I had a lot on my mind.

It's good to know you have people in your life that care about you. I wish you felt like you could have come to me but... I understand, you were in a bad place.

I wasn't fair to you either. I should have told you from the start about Aaron. Maybe things would have worked better between you and I if was more honest, too.

Thanks for letting me know.

[Alejandro Riviera]

No, Judah, look
I'm not telling you this to make you feel bad. Don't feel bad. I wasn't in a good place for anyone to try and get close to me.
I guess I just had to hit rock bottom before I could start picking myself up

And well
I still want you to be here in my life
I need a voice of reason like yours. Actually I need it a LOT more than you know

[Judah Hyunh]

O-oh.

I didn't think you were... I just...
I guess I have some guilt about it, that's all.

I'd love to be in your life as your voice of reason.

[Alejandro Riviera]

Don't baby
No guilt, okay? Don't ever feel bad—you did more for me than anyone ever had. I really didn't deserve a love like yours
But I'm glad I had it, even for a short while. :)

Are you still in town? How're you holding up?
I've been thinking... I might move here. Is that crazy?

[Judah Hyunh]

You sound so different. Have you been going to therapy?
Whatever it is, it seems like it's good for you.

I am still in town and things aren't looking great. I don't want to give up hope but I feel like we're not going to find Danny alive and I don't have the heart to say it out loud.
I hope he's out there, though. And I hope... he's not hurt.
It's just been so long.

And I don't think that's too crazy. Heh. I spent my whole life wanting to get out of here... And now...
It's not crazy though.

[Alejandro Riviera]

Not therapy as such, but I found a
God so. Things are good.

I'm going to help. And don't ever give up hope baby. Until we find a body, Danny's out there alive. This town's only so big, they can't hide him forever!

'And now' huh? 😗 You're thinking of moving back?

[Judah Hyunh]

Good. I'm happy to hear it.

Really? You'll really help us? I know you've been through a lot lately but... you were always a good cop. We could use another set of eyes with your background.

And... yeah... actually, I gave what you said to me a lot of thought. About how stupid it is to let something like where I live or want to live get in the way of my feelings.

[Alejandro Riviera]

Honey the feds didn't recruit me for nothing, right? With me on the case, we'll get it solved in no time.
Me and you and your special friend, hm? ;)

Did you two make up? Please tell me you did. It'd make me feel a lot less guilty.

[Judah Hyunh]

I wasn't going to say it... but yes. You have a lot more reach than I do, for sure.
...

We did. I
didn't want to say anything in case
I didn't want to hurt you.

[Alejandro Riviera]

Well Judah
Eternal love of my life

Thank fuck you did. Oh my god that's such a relief!
I mean... I do wish we could've made it work but
I kind of also love having you just
As my best friend

I miss staying up until like 3 or 4am just talking with you, back before we started dating
And the coffee runs, going out for jogs, meeting up for lunch, all of that got me through so many tough days

Do you think we could still have that?