Burning Too Bright

[Roy Ingram]

If it had been any other day... meeting after meeting, question after question. It was hard work keeping the school running. And then...

When Roy got home, he was seeing red. He slammed the door shut with such force he was sure something broke. It didn't matter. There were more important things. He dialed Daejun's number.

"What where you thinking?"

Rholy? Yu Daejun?

[Yu Daejun]

Deajun cringed as his phone buzzed, the screen lit up with the name Roy Joy <3. With a hard swallow, he answered the phone.

"I..I..I just wanted to see you. and... I didn't know you had a meeting."

"I wasn't thinking."

Daejun cowered in his room he could feel the rage in Roy's voice.

Never ever did they have someone walk in.

[Roy Ingram]

"Of course you weren't thinking!"

Roy's chest ached. It hurt to be angry at Daejun. But that boy will be the death of him if things go on like this.

"You know what I have at stake. You know what people will say. You know all of it and still... you act like a child!"

[Yu Daejun]

He was admitting his faults yet Roy was still attacking and it hurt to be called a child! He had grown up so much since they met and he knew it would hurt to be called a child. He wanted to hurt Roy back but wanted to make him happy more.

Deajun held back a rude comment. "I don't think they saw anything, what did they say after I left?"  He tried to keep his voice sweet and kind though the verbal attack he well deserved. Roy was trying to send him off when the door opened.

He tried to play it off but the way they both jumped made it look suspicious. Daejun just gave somone fuel for gossip.

[Roy Ingram]

Roy didn't know if he was being intentionally mean or too angry. Either way, the flame had been lit and nothing can snuff out a salamander's fire.

"They didn't say anything. I told them I was showing you your test results and they bought it. I've worked hard so people can trust me."

He stopped for a moment, a took a deep breath. It should have calmed him but instead it provided more oxygen to the fire.

"That's not the point, Daejun. You know it's risky to do anything when we are at school but you kept pushing and pushing. I thought you knew better."

[Yu Daejun]

He knew better it's just the uncontrollable desire to feel and be touched lead him to Roy's office. What did it get him, anger and rag?

He knew he was being selfish but last time Roy seemed to like the attention at school. What did he do any different this time?  Deajun had no control over them just walking in and not knocking.

Roy was mad at the situation and taking it out on Daejun and he didn't like it at all. But he couldn't lose him either. He was desperate at this point to keep Roy.

"I'm sorry, I don't know what else to say, Roy." His voice low and heavy.

[Roy Ingram]

"Stop apologizing! I don't need you to be sorry."

Roy took another deep breath. When he exhaled, it felt hotter than it should have, like fire licking at the back of his throat.

"All you have to do is wait. Wait until school is over and then I'll come to you. You knew from the start how much of myself I can give you. You know I give you everything...  and all you have to do is wait. Is that too much to ask?"

[Yu Daejun]

His brow furrowed, what did Roy want from him then? To not be stupid? Good luck he was young and in love.

"No..." Daejun muttered into the phone with a pouty face.

"It won't happen again I will be good at school I promise no matter how bad I wanna feel you. I will wait for you to come to me..."

Was this what Roy wanted to hear? He let a low sigh out sad that they wouldn't be seeing each other tonight.

[Roy Ingram]

And there it was. Those words. Daejun wanted to feel Roy and Roy would let him. He had as little control as the boy. Roy was supposed to be the mature one. Not that it showed. He was acting like a real asshole. He knew it and couldn't stop.

"Daejun... you understand why I'm saying this, right? I'm... I don't want to be angry at you but this isn't a fantasy. This is real life and there are consequences. You think I would keep you a secret if there was any other way?"

[Yu Daejun]

It felt like a fantasy at times like the night at his place, that was a fantasy come true.

"Then don't be angry with me, they bought your cop-out and I am a great student why would I not be in your office?"

Daejun wasn't thinking that everyone knew he was gay as gay could be and he was in Roy's office with the door shut and really close to him behind his desk.

[Roy Ingram]

"Daejun, you don't get it. This isn't about just tonight. It's about every time you take risks for both of us. You know people won't understand. They'll twist and turn the story until both of us are unrecognizable."

Roy sank into the couch, feeling the hot air around him boil.

"I don't want people to think you are anything less than the sweet caring guy that you are. But they won't see it if... if they see half the picture. The wrong half."

[Yu Daejun]

"Oh..." is all he said realizing where they were.

"You're not saying we have to take a break are you?"

Daejun's heart races at the thought of them breaking up for any amount of time. He loved Roy and he wanted to spend the rest of his life with him.

Even if it was in secret. Hell, Roy could get a girlfriend as a cover he was cool with that he just needed to be needed by Roy.

[Roy Ingram]

That tone... that soft sweet tone. Roy was going to give in again. Like he always did.

"No, I'm..."

He's going to give in.

"I'm not saying that."

Breaking up... it felt wrong. Like a BBQ in the snow.

"I want you to be careful. For both of our sake."

[Yu Daejun]

"Yeah, I can be careful. I'd do anything for you and you know that, my love."His tone got sweeter as he spoke.

It was a relief Roy was calming down. That's true love there, to not stay mad. This was a big slip up but not too big and Daejun was happy Halloween was coming up. He and Roy could dress up and party in public as long as they had good enough costumes.

Did this little fight mess up their plans to go out? It was silly of Daejun but he really wanted this to be out with Roy they were always behind closed doors.

[Roy Ingram]

"I... I love you, Daejun. I wouldn't say these things if I didn't care."

The AC kicked in, blowing the hot hair away from Roy and giving him a moment to rest.

"Come over. I can't leave it like this, without seeing your face."