Help me feel again

[Levi Yoon]

Hey
I know it's been a few months and I avoid you at all cost but...

I feel so alone inside and I didn't know who to talk to

Alec SmithA

[Choi Beom Gyu]

Ya, it has been a long time since I have seen your face...

well, I'm here what do you wanna talk about Levi?

[Levi Yoon]

I don't know how else to say it, I'm a foster kid I have a baby brother he is 1 and my mom is dead. dad left when Eli was born. I am alone.

I don't want to do anything but sleep...

[Choi Beom Gyu]

Ya, I know how you feel. I haven't been sleeping that much either. I just want to make my family proud of me so I have been working hard. Ever since they found out I was gay they disowned me. I will do anything to make them love me and call me their son again.

I'm sorry you're mom passed away and you're taking care of Eli. Do you wanna talk about it?

[Levi Yoon]

Did you come out at the parade in Portland? That's where a few of my friends and I were when I got the call.

My best friend Sully's parents foster and adopted some kids. Sully talked them into taking us in. But when I'm 18 I plan on moving out and adopting Eli as my own. 

It's just hard. I sorry about your parents being the way they are. I wasn't able to tell her.

I'll never know what she thought...

[Choi Beom Gyu]

It's not you're fault that my family don't accept me for who I am. I really wish you luck on adopting Eli. Did you get any sleep yet bro? You need to be in good health to help/Care for your Eli. Are you eating well? That must be hard that you got the call about your parents. Especially since you were with your friends. My parents said they are going to kick me out at age 18 because they don't want a fag living in there home. So I have to find a job so I can save for a new house. I really wish they would accept me for who I am.

[Levi Yoon]

Sleep, yeah I get to sleep every once in a while. The Bennett's help out a lot and they feed us well.

I just wish I was home then maybe my mom wouldn't have gotten in a car accident. I am lucky to have Eli he was in the car with my mom.

I think I can stay with the Bennett's I just don't want to be a bother, they have so many as it is. I feel like I am introducing. Having a baby in the house is way different than older kids like Sully and Jenny. I wish you the best of luck with finding a job and place.

[Choi Beom Gyu]

m-my dad came home last night drink and started hitting me. he said how could anyone love you? He said I should be dead in a ditch and that I was nothing but a waste of space. You're not bothering them they sound like they are happy to see you there. oh god, my dad is back I-I.....

He did not text Levi in weeks because of Alec's father.

[Levi Yoon]

Hey, it's been a while since we talked. I guess you have been busy. I hope you are doing well.

A few weeks after Alec's last text

[Choi Beom Gyu]

H-Hey how are you doing? I-I'm going through a lot but I think I can get throw it. sorry for not talking to you in a while my dad got mad at me and started hitting me. He grabbed my phone and smashed it into a lot of pieces. He said fag's don't get phone's he has seen that I was texting you and took it the wrong way and ya...


Thinks to himself I love my family but I need to get out of here. My dad will kill me one day. I'm so afraid but I can't tell anyone I need to stay strong.

[Levi Yoon]

I'm so sorry I got you in trouble. You need to get out of there it's not safe. Have you found a place to work yet? I'm sorry he broke your phone. Maybe I can help you get a new one. 

Delete all my message so you don't get in trouble again. And let me know if he hurt you again.

He is no man if he has to hit on you to feel like one! Sorry I am so mad right now. Your dad is an ass

[Choi Beom Gyu]

Don't worry about it it's not you're fault. Yes, I have to wait though He said he was going to call me back to see if I really pass the last test. I have a new phone it's way better than the old one I had. My mom even though she is mad at me right now she bought me a new phone and said that she was sorry for how she was acting towards me. I forgave her and asked if she could call me her son. she shooked her head no and said not yet. I'm just happy she talked to me at all. How are you and Eli doing?

[Levi Yoon]

Really that sucks though about your dad.

I'm happy to hear your mom is talking to you and that's cool a new phone!

Eli's good, being a baby getting into everything. I'm tired but I have to stay up for a few more hours.

[Choi Beom Gyu]

oh, I'll keep you company. whats on your mind?

[Levi Yoon]

Not much just tired of being here. Summer is something to look forward to, but I just want to be in bed. and sleep