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I get a little bit Genghis Khan...

Started by Hwang Ryeol, Apr 29, 2019, 11:50 AM

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Really? Why?

Because I was in love with Gunji?
Or because I wouldn't stop complaining? :P

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Both?

So many centuries of life.
Have you never wondered why I haven't taken other lovers even though I could technically?

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Oh yes, yes I have.
I even told you I'd... be okay with it, as long as you told me. But you never said anything and you haven't been with anyone else...

I assumed you'd tell me when you were ready to. That and it's impossible to make you say anything if you don't want to.

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I started life as a sexless being, despite what some might say in folklore.
I suppose it carried on to this form.
There is literally no desire in me for anybody but you.

So it makes me curious
knowing you have feelings for another. What it must be like.

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*blink blink*

You
Feel nothing for anyone else? Only for me? All of your
Love and desire is concentrated on me? Is that right?

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Yes, that's right.
Even you find it strange.

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No, I don't. It's startling, but I don't find it strange.
That's how you were made. It's you and I love you.

But as for feeling love for another person, I don't know what to tell you. When I was with Gunji, he was nobility and I was his servant. It would never have come to fruition. He was going to marry another noblewoman and... I was... I had no say in the matter, obviously.

I thought I would die on the battlefield. I had plans to...
Well, life didn't seem worth living without him.

Then you came along and you killed me and I realized... I didn't want to die. Not really. But you also gave me a new lease on life and a new perspective. I love you for that. I feel as if I've lived two lives. One with him and one with you.

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Love is a strange thing.
I feel...
strange thinking of you with somebody else.

I didn't know it could be a problem.
But then at the same time, I'm not certain that it is.

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Are you afraid? That I'll run away with him and leave you?

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No. As you pointed out, that would only end in misery.

I'm just
curious, I suppose would be the word for it.

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Hm... i'm not sure what that means! Is there something I can do?

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Who were you?
Who are you?
I'm not sure we really shed our pasts, not when we're confronted with them in the present.

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We don't talk much, do we? I always thought the past was better left where it was but maybe that was a mistake.

And honestly... I thought telling you about Gunji would make you feel
Bad? Hurt?

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I think it did. At first.
But now I wonder who you would be if
he was in your life.

Sometimes I think
No, I know
I'm not enough for you.
Your lot in life is cruel, if you really think about it. But I had to do it, you understand.

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What? Not enough?
...this link between us leaves nothing to the imagination does it?

*siiiigh*

I know you had to do it, I don't blame you Riku. This is our fate, it's nothing we can fight against. And like I told you, Gunji was going to marry someone else. He would have started a family with her, had children, probably take over the land and become a Lord.

There was no room in his life for me. I wouldn't have grown with him. If anything I think I would've been miserable, loving someone from afar. If you think about it, you saved me, really.